Post 13 Who Am I?

When I heard that Poirot confronted the murderer of Roger today I was excited. I was ecstatic! Then I was told that it was James that killed him and my heart dropped. I couldn't believe it. Not only did he kill Roger, but he blackmailed Mrs.Ferrars too! Why didn't I see it? I noticed that he was making far too much money for someone that barely had clients, but I didn't think anything of it. I don't know why I didn't, because usually I catch everything and I'm right. Well, today Roger killed himself. I found his body in the bedroom around noon and saw a bottle of Veronal clutched in his hand. I nearly had a heart attack. I mean first I find out that he was the one that killed Roger and was the one blackmailing Mrs.Russell and now this. I don't think I can handle anything else. I also found a book that Roger wrote hidden under his bead while I was tidying up. I wonder what it says. I will start reading it today. Maybe I will and maybe I won't. I don't think I want to know what it says. I don't know if I can handle it.